Let the 30-day blog-party commence.
Each day has a new topic. The commonality? I have to discuss each truthfully. No bullshit, no fluff…real, raw, (and probably) sometimes r-rated.
If you didn’t see my last post, I grabbed this idea from another blog-writing friend.
Here’s the breakdown:
Day 01 – Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 – Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 – Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 – Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 – Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 – Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 – Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 – Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 – Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 – Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 – Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 – Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 – Write a letter to a band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 – Write a letter to a hero that has let you down.
Day 15 – Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 – Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 – A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 – Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 – What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 – Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 – (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 – Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 – Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 – Make a play-list to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.
Day 25 – The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 – Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 – What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 – What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 – Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 – A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Here we go.
My Kryptonite is my heart. Yes, it really is THE thing I hate most about myself.
I’m known as the ‘smart’ friend. I have the right words to say at the right moment, I can have a conversation with most, and if you’ve read a book I probably have too. It’s just the way I like living. I get pop-culture references; I’m a fan of staying relevant…sue me. However, the majority of my friends are astounded by some of the unbelievably awkward/painful situations for which I’ve been involved.
My brain works wonderfully. My heart does too (it’s also my biggest asset). The problem? My heart overrides my brain 98% of the time, sending a big Eff-you to logic/reasoning/common sense.
My helping-heart kept me in a relationship with Ike for far longer than I should’ve stayed. Yes, even after my brain was telling me that if I didn’t leave I’d find myself in a grave. It kept hope alive that James would wake the-funk up. Yes, even after he flat-out told me ‘no’ enough times to train a small puppy. And, sadly, it still releases emotions (directly related to both of these examples) that lead me to believe I need a major prescription of “Hi, I’m crazy” pills.
But the thing that bothers me most is…more than any one of those examples…the root of the problem.
I give far too much. I sacrifice my happiness for people who really don’t give a shit about me. And then I’m hurt by it. I suffer because I follow my big, pathetic, obviously eager heart into the lion’s den.